HEEM HIAN

Saturday, July 18, 2009

SO CUTE RIGHT!?

oh and i watched american pie last night. HAHAHA.

NOW THAT IT'S ALL SAID AND DONE

3:06 PM

Sunday, July 05, 2009

hello :D i've been very brave i finally chopped my hair off. i miss my hair very very much and i kinda regret touching it. but here's how the new hairstyle's like! it makes me look extremely fat and weird. and since i love tying my hair so much, this cut makes me annoyed cause i can't tie it.

with my partner at team dinner @ Minori <3

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9:45 PM

Saturday, July 04, 2009

now that MSTs are over(HEHEHE YES IT'S OVER!) i've got other things to settle.

1) clear my table

2) clear my cupboard

3) ten thousand projects

okay anyway i'm excited. i want to go to the zoo and go for a picnic. and get my nails done. i'm not gonna shop and i'm gonna refrain from cabbing. awesome (: okay i gotta shower then zzZzZZzzz!

NOW THAT IT'S ALL SAID AND DONE

12:10 AM

Friday, June 26, 2009

i was reading through my older post and it was. bitter sweet. hahaha. it reminded me of my SC days and how retarded my thoughts were. and it reminded me of him. but the only good thing is that it doesn't feel the same anymore. haha i used to talk about food and my fats in every of my post then. and my brain functioned funny. and i found this from before. i shall re-do it now :D

7 random facts about me:

1. i'm freaking lazy
2. i think i'm secretly meant to be a guy.
3. if i feel that i should let something go, even if i'm gonna feel miserable, i would.
4. i love making people annoyed. like really annoyed.
5. i could sleep my entire day away if i had nothing to do.
6. my favourite colour's red
7. i'm in love with shoes and bags. i would marry them if i could.

7 things that scare me:
1. thunder and lightning
2. fast vehicles.
3. injections
4. falling in love
5. eating like a monster
7. nothing's forever

7 songs I’m listening to:

1. next plane home - daniel powter
2. win - brian mcknight
3. please don't leave me - pink
4. just like a pill - pink
5. remember me this way - jordin hill
6. last thing on my mind - leann rimes/ ronan keating
7. so close so far - hoobastank

7 things that I like the most:

1. eating
2. spending time with people i love
3. having time to myself
4. watching tv
5. sleeping
6. my sc days
7. losing weight just by thinking :D

7 things I say the most:
1. shut up
2. neh neh
3. go and die
4. hellloooo?
5. what the shit
6. i'm okay :D
7. does it look like i care?

7 people to do this:
haha you can forget this part.

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1:31 PM

Thursday, June 25, 2009

SOMEONE STOP ME FROM SHOPPING AND WASTING MONEY.

maybe stop me from feeling so miserable too...

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10:26 PM

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

i think loving someone weakens you. when you love someone, they are your achilles heels, they have a control over you, like the remote to the television. i don't like how every single thing affects me in a way it never did, and i don't like how petty and jealous i get. i hate how being away from them makes you feel like there's something missing, cause i like being in control and i like to know that no one can really affect me. i don't like being weak. even if i were to cry, i like to do it alone. and if i were to feel upset, i'd like to know that it's not because of someone else. i hate feeling miserable and emo just cause there are too many people that i care for now.

honestly if i had a choice, i'd rather not love.

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10:54 PM

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

i don't like saying what's at the darkest corner of my brain, or what's at the deepest part of my heart, because i don't see the need. why say so much, cause to me words could mean nothing. i could say anything but only i know if it's the truth. i know it's a bad habit and i really should voice my thoughts out once in a while, but it feels all too hypocritical and surperficial, like i'm just seeking attention, like i have to say it out because i feel the need to explain even if i'm being misunderstood. with words, i can exaggerate any situation. with words, it may not even be true. i could pour my sorrows out to a good friend, i could confide in a good friend but i can never tell the world my stories or tell them how much tears i've cried. and i would rather let someone misunderstand me than lower myself to beg that person for his trust.

maybe saying it out just makes me feel weaker, just makes me feel like i've knocked down the wall that has been protecting me all these while. but more than that, i only need the people who understand me to know what's really going on, and most of the time they just need me to say it once to believe me. they don't need me to cry to them or whine to them about it, they don't need me to tell them everyday about it. they just need that one word from me and it's all they need to truly believe me, and to back me up whenever. no questions no doubt no sarcastic comments, just complete trust.

like i've said, when the storm's over, you learn something good from it. you learn how to cope with a storm. i think i'm learning how to cope with one very well now. i'm gonna find back the person i used to be, someone who could open and close doors of the heart and brain as easily as eating can be. have i said how much i've been eating lately? like a freaking monster i tell you. disgusting. if i can find a shoe at home and it ain't raining later i shall convince myself i need to run. for now, i need to catch up on the past 2 weeks of work i should have done. later (:

oh, and thanks to the junior girls and some junior guys who supported us at IWF (: i hope you guys have an idea of what sprinting's like :D

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2:53 PM